I just had someone accuse me of not being able to appreciate love songs due to the fact that they believe I’ve never been in love. They were a little offended because when asked if I liked R&B, I said no. They then chalked it up to it being the fact that most R&B songs are about love.
If anyone truly knows me, they know I never speak of my relationship history. I feel there’s no point in someone knowing how many break-ups I’ve been through, how many people I’ve rejected / been rejected by, or expressing my number of sexual partners. My mother knows just about every aspect of my life and even she doesn’t truly know about my romantic life. I prefer to keep that personal for comfort reasons along with the fact that there’s at least two people in a relationship at all times, and I refuse to give out someone else’s personal information.
I just can’t believe someone could be so ignorant to assume that my taste is limited to my life experiences. As if you need a special gate key to advance to the other levels of life with the other players. For someone to say something so asinine and be serious about it really makes me consider the intelligence of a person.
I listened to songs about sex for years before I lost my virginity. I was born and raised in San Diego and I enjoy some Country music. I’ve never been a Vampire and I thoroughly enjoy the Queen of the Damned soundtrack. I don’t know anything about Opera and some of those songs entertain me as well. I’ve never had hoes and I like the song P.I.M.P.
You don’t need to roll a seven to be able to advance with everyone else at the same time. It has nothing to do with the type of person you are or the things you enjoy. If you’re feeling a certain emotion, it may make you want to drown yourself in those things until it passes. However that doesn’t mean you can’t enjoy the same things as someone else.
I know I shouldn’t have let it get to me, but it really did because someone is judging me for a piece of my life they know nothing about. I’ve actually been in love before. I’ve been hurt and it took me some time to get over it. And now I’m single because I don’t want to be in a relationship for a little awhile, I’d like to focus on myself. But I still LOVE the songs; Still in Love (Kissing You), He Won’t Go, My All, Don’t Let Go (Love), Be Without You, Smash Into You, and My Heart Will Go On.
When I was a little kid, before I had any interest in boys, my favorite song was I Wanna Love You Forever and my favorite film was Titanic.
I really wish people would stop making silly accusations because they feel they have more life experience than someone else.
Life is not a competition.
I love you for keeping me busy! Here we go(:
1. Last Kiss?
My last ‘real’ kiss was w/ the boy I lost my virginity to (it wasn’t that long ago). I don’t like to date too much so I don’t kiss a lot of boys. Haha. I like my space.
6. Have you ever dated someone twice?
Hell no. I barely date someone once! lol. I feel like if our relationship ended, there was a good reason for it. And none of my past relationships were anything I’d ever like to salvage.
12. This year have you had sex?
15. This year have you made a new friend?
I wanted to say yes but I don’t think so ): I’ve been chatting w/ the same people irl and online for well over a year and I love them all! I’d say online boys, but the ones I’m thinking of are from work haha.
17. This year have you laughed until you cried?
SI! My friend made this comment around Halloween time about people painting their faces to be vampires that had me on the floor! But I frequently make myself laugh until I cry tbh. I’m way too silly for my own good.
18. This year have you met someone who changed you?
Yea. I hate to admit it, because I don’t want to admit to myself how much power this one person in particular had over me for a little bit. But it was a change for the better that helped me realize what I want / don’t want in life. And they aren’t apart of it anymore which is nice.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for:
I can’t wait until I have enough money for implants. LOL! Or for a gorgeous bed from Fabulous and Baroque.
35. Most visited webpage:
Pssshhhh, tumblr! Or a work site.
39. Zodiac Sign:
48. What do you like about yourself?
I like that I’m extremely self-aware/objective. A lot of people don’t see their flaws or mistakes because they can’t look at themselves from someone else’s point of view. But I’ve always been very good at doing that so it’s given me a conscious bigger than I can handle.
61. Right now I’m about to…
Go to bed after I finish answering these haha. I’m soooooper tired
64. Want kids?
Very much so. I’d like three little offspring I can dress up in Lolita dresses and Tuxedos all the time.
67. Lips or eyes?
I think I like lips better. I love when boys have pretty full lips because I don’t meet a lot of guys who do. So it excites me when I see one, especially when he’s a good kisser. I need neck kisses so I need a boy with good maintenance in that area haha.
71. Romantic or spontaneous?
Romantic with a dash of spontaneous. I’m an introvert w/ wicked anxiety problems. As much as I like someone willing to do stuff all day, everyday, randomly, I like things to be planned. I like knowing what’s going on or it will stress me out. I feel bad because I HATE surprises. Gift surprises? Fine. But I hate when someone wants to blindfold you when you’re going somewhere.
91. Kiss on the first date?
I don’t see why not. I don’t care if someone has sex on the first date tbh. As long as you’re doing what YOU want to do, and not because the other person wants it. You need to have your power and stuff done on your terms and not be taken advantage of.
95. Did you sing today?
Nope ): I can’t sing when I feel like someone can hear me and it’s been awhile and I’m losing my voice ):
98. Out of everything in the world, what do you wish for?
My dreams to come true w/ enough time to execute everything on my bucket list so I can live w/ NO regrets. I want to be an actor, while studying astronomy, psych, and learn other languages. I wanna play the piano and make a live action adaptation of one of Grimms Fairy Tales. I wanna get my pilot’s license and get back into / learning figure skating again. I want to learn to ride a motorcycle and how to downgrade from iOS7 lol. I have so much stuff I want to do and just want the time to do it as well.
100. Do you like the way you look?
I do, it took me awhile to be %100 confident w/ my appearance, but now I am. The only things that used to bother me were the fact that my legs are super pale for a POC and I am covered in scars from flea bites from my pets and falling off my bike. But now I like that I’m all over pale because I wanna be a vampire! lol. I like that I have long dark hair, full lips, and curves. These are things that used to irk me (excluding the hair) and I learned to love myself a lot more.